I think, reading Dee-EhnD’s post I can relate to that, more than any other person that I know.
I am usually depressed. I don’t like people that say “It’ll be OK”, because it usually isn’t. I like reality, but hate it entirely at the same time. Things like poverty, religion, war don’t concern me. I don’t stop to think about it. I should, but I don’t. I like darkness, just as Dee-EhnD does. Darkness is my ‘light’. I think a lot. Too much, in fact. Like things about, suicide, fantasizing about beating the crap out of people that don’t like me. I’m a quiet person, and don’t have much self-confidence. If a person doesn’t like me, I hate them talking behind my back.
My music, is my life. Most of you know what music I listen to. I hate people that talk about it in a bad way, yet love movies like ‘Texas Chainsaw Massacre’, ‘Dahmer’ and all other ‘gore’ movies. My music, black metal, speaks things that modern society don’t want to bring to the surface of conversation. The churches, and politics, work together to filter these things out from the work drones and smart ass kids of the world.
You watch TV and things are pushed in your face. Things like advertising, happy kids that love thier cereal, shows about teenagers that love for the sake of loving. I hate things like that, and that’s why I steer clear of TV. Reality shows, I really don’t like. Who wants to watch someone eat thier breakfast in the morning? Or things like Jerry Springer, I don’t wanna see midgets that can dress up as babies and have sex with 5 men in half an hour.
I respect women entirely. I put women before me. Though, I hate women that play men. They trick you into thinking they like you. Or they lie about lots of things. Lately I have stopped thinking about women though. For various reasons. I don’t like going up to girls that I don’t know and sparking a conversation with them, because of my low self-confidence.
I don’t care for many people, and the people I care for don’t always seem like they care for me. I don’t like strangers, and tend to keep away from crowds, unless they have something in common with me, concerts for example. I find gothic culture interesting, as well as things that are considered wierd, gross, or digusting. I like reading up on those type of things. Necrophilia, death, medieval war and music are some examples.
I don’t believe in racism (though I don’t like people that have things against the white community), religion, peace.
I don’t like recieving compliments. It makes me seem uncomfortable, and most of the time it just seems like they’re saying it to make me feel better.
I like dogs. Dislike cats. They’re ok, but don’t do anything.
I like computer games, computers, people that like me for who I am, girls that like me, guys that don’t say stuff behind my back, blades (swords, daggers etc.), music, money, food, drawing (realistic, not too good at cartoons), movies that I can relate to (Fight Club, Human Traffic), receiving mail/email on a personal level - rather than ‘here is your prize’ or ‘your password here’.
I’m sure I’ve bored you enough with my negativity I’m sure you will think differently about me. Please ask questions if you wish.