Hum. That's a bit of heavy one to answer in an honest way.
The simple answer is that I don't really know what I am living for
The best answer that I have (and I've thought about this quite a lot), is that I live for existing now. I try to treat every day as if it could be the last one I have and value the people I meet, and let the petty things go. It's not possible to do that all the time, but I try to make the effort.
Most of the other things like relationships, work, family, books, movies, music etc are distractions - things that fill in time and stop me thinking about things clearly. I don't mean that my husband, family and friends aren't important, because of course they are. It's just that they shouldn't fully define my life or state of happiness. I don't think I can put the responsibility for my own happiness onto another person...
That probably doesn't make much sense, but maybe I'm still figuring it out myself
(blimey, this might be the most serious thing I've ever posted :eek: )