first of all i must say that I am kind of scared to talk about this subject, but i must get this off my chest and i really really need some advise here.
Yesterday was the first time i had ever had sex with a girl. I specify the word girl there because usually i have sex with men. At first it was all nice and it started out to be really nice and exciting. But there was one turning point and that is the point where she took her pants off. Ofcourse i had seen a vagina before, but only online on pictures. And this may sound strange to you all, but i really disliked it. The flesh of the vagina was all soft and wet and to me it reallt smelled bad, even though she had just taken a shower.
Because this was my first time with a woman, i thought that it would just be a part i had to go through. But when the time came and i was, kinda forced, to like her vagina i just had to throw up.
I know this sounds like a bullshit story, but trust me, it really took alot of time and sweat to write this.
The reason that i did, is because the girl i had this “experiance” with, is a really close friend of mine who wanted to “help” me out with part of being gay for 100% sure. Well, this worked out the way i thought, i am gay for sure, but i don’t know what to do with the friendship with this girl.
Is there anyone who has even had an experiance like this, or has some advise? I really really want the friendship back, but i dont think she wants to because she doesn’t return my calls or anything. Please help me out here.